Meh meh meh.

I've decided, that I WILL, without a single fucking doubt, go to and graduate from College.

Why? Quite simple.

I'm not in a good place. I do not have a good life. I have never had a family. I have not ever had anyone I could depend on. I have never had trustworthy friends. I have never once fit in nor have I wanted to. I have so much hate, and I hate so much.

I have never been happy or content.

There aren't a lot of things I've really pursued in life, but damn it, I have for once some real wants, a love. I have an actual general direction I want to follow.

and by god,

If I'm ever going to even have a chance at anything good, at ever achieving for myself any kind of happiness. I will have to have gone to college.

I'm going to show you (the world) that even though I came with absolutely NOTHING but my mind and clothing.

I'm going to beat you anyway.

JUST YOU WATCH.

(is there a middle-finger emote for my mood here on DA?)